The Biggest Sin


Loving you

was the biggest sin

not because love is cursed

but because I gave it

to someone who never valued

to keep it


I trusted you

the way people trust gravity

never questioning the fall

until I was already

on the ground

bleeding


my heart didn’t break clean

it shattered

into glass-thin memories

every laugh

every promise

cutting me again

when I remember


I thought you were destiny

written somewhere permanent

but you were just a moment

pretending to be forever

until you got bored

and let me go


betrayal wasn’t one event

it was a pattern

lies stacked on top of lies

while I kept choosing you

and you kept choosing

yourself


you watched me cry

and still fed me hope

in small, addictive doses

just enough to keep me waiting

just enough to keep me quiet


realizing I was being played

was the cruelest heartbreak

not losing you

but losing myself

while loving you


being good felt illegal

being loyal felt embarrassing

waiting for your messages

not ghosting

not leaving

not giving up

felt like I was committing

a crime alone


you never saw my worth

only my patience

only my availability

only how much I could take

without leaving


so if you ever wonder

why I changed

why I’m quieter now

why I don’t love the same


know this

you didn’t break my heart once

you taught it

how to survive



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